Epiphany

Last night when my insomnia was in full swing I had an epiphany. Too bad I didn't care enough to get up and write it down. Until then enjoy a couple of my favorite personal quotes.

"You can't crash if you don't drive fast enough."
and
"I'm like an insecurity vampire."

I'm sure you can figure it out from there.

That is all.

Worth more dead than alive.

Today I had to re-fill out my service members group life insurance information again. I've already tried to change it twice since this damn deployment began, fucking corp. Hopefully this time it'll stick. If it does, then I'll be worth roughly $120,000 dollars apiece to three of my closest friends. I wonder if they know who they are? Hopefully I'll be leaving sooner rather than later for country. As I've said over and over, I detest southern california with all of my being.

I want my life back.

On the plus side, I do get to yell at inferior human being quite a bit.

Too much life.

I finally got to go home, and while I did not quite get the reception I was hoping for, it was still an improvement on where I'd been. I'm back in california now and I'm basically waiting on a flight out of the country. But here's where the annoying part comes in. I flew back out here, only to spend half a day in uniform and then be released for the weekend. I have no desire to spend any time out here in this disgusting state, and why they could not just let us spend one last weekend with the people we actually wanted to be around is beyond me. Not that it really would have changed much I'm sure. I was given a pretty decent send off though. Too bad I'm such a fleeting memory to some people once I'm out of visual range.

I'm too much of cynic for this sort of thing.

More later, hopefully something with some substance.